I have to be honest. I’ve been feeling really low, like reeeeally low… uninspiring, unheard, unseen, unhelpful, not important. Woah, yeah, those are BIG words. I’m not looking for sympathy, just trying to be honest.
When I can’t make sense of things, it helps me to share. By sharing, we connect, and know we’re not alone.
Seriously, tho what’s up with the week? Are you feeling this intense energy too?
I started spiraling down from last weekend’s newsletter, where a friend lovingly called me out on my newsletter where I said I created the T.H.I.N.K. acronym. I definitely did not create it. I should’ve used different words. I’m ashamed to admit that I was rushing through editing it. I’m ashamed I got called out. I’m ashamed that I was far from being mindful.
To make things worse, right after receiving that email, I was asked to repost on instagram a referral and I misspelled a word, saying “I can’t do my business WITH her” instead of “withOUT” her. Those three letters totally changed the meaning of the sentence. I immediately received a dozen DMs of people noticing my mistake. I’m sure they didn’t take it as seriously as I did. I’m sure they laughed it off.
The ironic part is that I was rushing through it and was totally NOT mindful…AND I had just written about being mindful?!
My inner critic shook it’s invisible finger at me and said,
“What a f*cking phoney you are!
You’re such a loser!
SHAME thrives in silence.
In a conversation this past week with Jacki Carr, she shared her story of feeling underwater
When she said the word “underwater,” every bone in my body ached with familiarity. I am struggling. Muffled. Lost. Unsure. Drowning.
With divine timing, our conversation occurred on the Autumn #Equinox, where there is equal light and dark hours. What a potent time to go inward and look at both light and dark areas of life, shed layers of habits and beliefs that aren’t serving you and cultivate new beliefs that do.
This week with fall equinox and the new moon, this is a dynamic time to hold your dark and light aspects equally in one hand so you can learn from both.
Self-care is meeting yourself exactly where you’re at in this moment, and asking “WHAT DO I NEED in this moment?”
Normally, we do our goal setting in January, but with the change of seasons, it’s a good time to check in and see what you’re currently delighting in and what you’re struggling with.
You have all of the answers within you.
What do you need to release and manifest? CLICK HERE to receive a free guided meditation for this autumn equinox and new moon reset: release old patterns and manifest + free PDF journal guide.
p.s. Thank you for all of the sweet angels who have shown up in my class, called me, in my conversations, or emailed me this week. At a time when I really needed it this week, you don’t even know how much your kind words and reassurance meant to me.